Wedding pics

Mama's Wedding

Mama's wedding was yesterday, July 14, 2012. She was the happiest I've ever seen her in my entire life. It was a beautiful ceremony, but bittersweet. Randy was there, mama's best friend who passed away in March's husband. He has stage 3 lung cancer and is not doing real well. We all love him so much and are praying so hard for his recovery. We all were missing Rene so bad. She should have been there. It broke my heart. She was so influential in moms life. She was her confidant, companion, secret keeper and best friend. She was the one mom could always talk to about anything and not get any judgement in return. Rene was like that with all of us. She was a best friend to the entire family. I could call her at any time and talk about anything. Her passing was so sudden and we all were so shocked. Randy has had to deal with a cancer diagnosis and losing his wife all in one month. I know she was smiling down on the wedding. There was a white butterfly circling our van when we got ready to leave the house to go to the church. I know that was her spirit. Sorry for the rambling, just so much to blog. Mom looked so beautiful in her dress. Jerry looked nice in his suit too. I'm going to post pics soon.

Good Times

Today I went and helped get ready for mamas wedding. Alec and the kids put tents up in the yard in case it rains. I breaded 44 lbs of chicken drummettes and rolled my sweet memaws hair. That was the highlight of my day. I haven't rolled her hair in years and its such an honor to do. I cherish those times. I'm so blessed to be 32 years old and still have my grandparents. I love them so much! Here's a pic of me rolling her hair.

Then Jana and Trudy decided they were going to make dresses out of some extra fabric we had.

Wonderful day. Then tonight we went to listen to tommy sing karaoke at Generations Bar. Good times.

Uneventful Day

We didn't do much today... we all kinda just hung out at the house and sat around.

Fried chicken homemade garlic roasted potatoes and green beans

Finally some fun

We had a great night tonight. We hung out with Tommy and Michelle and had fun just talking and listening to Tommy sing. We've not had a good time in awhile so it was nice.

feeling a lil better

im feeling a lil more positive about our situation today. still aggrivated but im going to find a way to talk to alec about our issues. probably  wont change much but at least he will know how i feel.

hopeless

im feeling so hopeless right now. its like everything is spinning out of control. my marriage is falling apart. we have financial problems on top of that. losing friends left and right. i have so much to be thankful for but i just cant seem to be thankful. its so hard when u love somebody so much and they insist on slowly killing themselves with prescription abuse. its just sad. and maddening. i just want to shake him and say wake up. hes missing so much of our lives  and the kids lives because he cant leave the damn pills alone. then he has a friend over that absolutely isnt helping matters. he is worse than alec. and i dont have the heart to tell him to go away. but im going to have to. we have no privacy and no time to even try to talk alone about our relationship. and to be honest i dont think i can talk nicely at this point. someone passing out every night and leaving me to handle everything and giving me no kind of affection whatsoever is not my idea of marital bliss. i just resent him so much. its not fair that everything lies on my shoulders and i have to be a bitch all the time. i dont have a chance to cut loose and relax. hes relaxed enough for both of us all the time. and everyone we know thinks im just mean and a bitch to him. they just dont know. they dont understand what is going on behind the scenes. i have to be this way to keep any sense of order for the kids. it just sucks.

Wedding Planning Outcome

I had a great time with my mom, sister, and Shirley making a CD for the wedding. They wrapped silverware in napkins and stuff. Clay went with me. I got some neon pink posterboard and markers for the kids to make signs to direct people to the ceremony and reception. I'm sure they will look awesome.

Over it

I am really tired of dealing with my husbands constant overuse of medication. Its really old. I told him tonight that next time he gets messed up and passes out like hes doing every night he will wake up alone. And I mean it. I'm frikin done.

Wedding Planning

im going to my moms today to help her with her wedding details for this weekend. im excited to spend some time with her. this will be fun.

Today's activities

Me and Alec went to Tommy and Michelle's house tonight and they worked on some projects. Then we went out to eat. Michelle is really cool. Tonight is the first time I met her. I think we could be good friends. The kids stayed home and held the fort down. Its so nice now that the kids are old enough to stay home by themselves. Me and Alec can kind of sneak off to friends houses for awhile and not worry about a babysitter. Ashley does a good job keeping the 3 boys in line while I'm gone. They all listen to her and RESPECT her. Their mama taught them that :).

My Very First Post

Hi. My name is Amy and I am a happily married mother of 4. Our story is pretty awesome. Me and my husband met 5 years ago as single parents to kids with absent father/mothers. I also have 2 other sons from my first marriage, and their father is very active in their life. My youngest son, Jadon, is the one whose father was absent. My husband has a daughter, Ashley, whose bio mother has been in and out of prison and is absent in her life. So thats 4 kids total. When we got engaged, my daughter asked me to be her mom. I happily accepted and have been mom ever since. Same with my son and husband. Jadon asked Alec to be his dad, and he has been the best father that ever was. Both kids have made tremendous strides in their lives just from having two loving parents. My older 2 sons, Hunter and Clay, live with their dad during the school year and with me on weekends and summers. They are very happy well adjusted kids. Ashley is 15, Hunter is 14, Clay is 13, and Jadon is 10. We have the best teenagers on the planet. Clay is Autistic. He wasnt diagnosed until age 11, and that was because I researched it and figured out what was wrong with my child. He is still wearing diapers because of the Celiac's disease that often comes with Autism. And he still is a wonderful well behaved child. Ashley is my right hand man. And my best friend. I could not live without her. She helps me so much and is the best girl in the world. Hunter is my sweet one. Always thoughtful, kind hearted. Jadon is my rambuxious one. He is very hyperactive but is also a very sweet sweet boy. They all get along really well, and get along most of the time. They have their moments of arguments occasionally though.